Dear readers, I apologize for my silence last week. There really is no excuse. I simply needed a brief break. Right now, I’m balancing three different jobs (web copy writing, food demoing and data entry) and I’m still working on maintaining a perfect equilibrium. Last week, I was especially busy with four days in a row of demos and before that some writing work and data entry I was behind on.
Besides being busy, I found that I needed a little space to care for myself. I had the run of the apartment for the three days that I wasn’t doing demos. I found rest in the solitude. Though I had a mental list of blog posts to write and emails/facebook messages to respond to, I felt a need to devote myself more to personal writing (in a week I filled nearly a whole journal, not a thin moleskin one either, a somewhat hefty 200+page journal).
The only exceptions I made from my solitude were for some of my oldest and closest friends: Joie, Julie, Nichelle, Lucy, Hilary and Logan. Most of these relationships are somewhat long distance. Last Monday evening I was able to meet up with Joie for dinner. She’s the only high school friend I’ve consistently kept up with. I can’t even tell you how many years it had been since we were able to get quality one-on-one time together. The other friends are from college and one from grad school.
While I take great joy in all of my relationships, these ones are particularly precious to me. I don’t have any active friendships that precede high school. This is in part my fault and also the fault of having moved multiple times during childhood. I don’t know what it’s like to have that best friend you’ve known since kindergarten. To still have women in my life who knew me when I was a quixotic and rebellious middle schooler. I cannot help but marvel at these close friends with whom I have an extended and extending history despite great distances and differences.
Having quality conversations with all of these friends reminded me that I’m not as alone as I often feel. Though I always fear the maxim, “Out of sight, out of mind,” I keep finding that we’re never entirely out of each other’s minds no matter how little we see each other. It’s a great comfort to realize that even when I’m secluded I’m not completely isolate.
Now that I’m feeling much more refreshed, I’ve got quite a bit to share so stay tuned.